Monday, 19 November 2007, 22:33
i thought i would be okay, i won't feel so emo for this few days, now that i got KO ONE to think about to make me happy. but i guess what i found out today really is too much for me to NOT feel emo. why did you have to tell me? why not just keep lying to me? at least its better than having me feel that you betrayed me now, right? right at the moment i found out, i couldn't laugh, there is nothing for me to laugh at. i couldn't cry, my mum will realize something is wrong with me. i'm feeling really terrible right now. heck, the more i type, the more emo i feel, coz the realization sank deeper every single minute, every single second. i feel so, stupid, idiotic, naive. you just let me lost the last bit of faith i had in you, i tried, you know. i really tried. but, again and again, you hurt me, deeply. i'm extremely disappointed.
i guess can be considered that i made a new friend today. cara. she's quite fun to be with, and so 'guai' de, not like me, always chase after idols and stuff. and she can be considered as a real live example of a mugger. and cara, don't mind i add, toad. hahaa...mugger toad sounds more, well, hardworking? that's the term people use in our school for those who seriously mug a lot. she really helped me a lot in both academics and curing my emoism...thanks so much!
tomorrow is going to be a sucky day. why? i cannot play the computer. or more like, restricted. not because of my mum this time, because they have to do some maintainence, so there will not be any current supply to our house, so i'm not charging whatever i have to prepare myself fot torture, coz there will be no electricilty from 9 to 3! T-T what can i do huh!?! commit suicide ah! -_- it's gonna be a boring day tomorrow. so now while it's not 11 yet, i'm converting some videos to put in my ipod, prepare for tomorrow...:( shit, just realised, no tv too!!! T-T
~AiLEeN*
i guess can be considered that i made a new friend today. cara. she's quite fun to be with, and so 'guai' de, not like me, always chase after idols and stuff. and she can be considered as a real live example of a mugger. and cara, don't mind i add, toad. hahaa...mugger toad sounds more, well, hardworking? that's the term people use in our school for those who seriously mug a lot. she really helped me a lot in both academics and curing my emoism...thanks so much!
tomorrow is going to be a sucky day. why? i cannot play the computer. or more like, restricted. not because of my mum this time, because they have to do some maintainence, so there will not be any current supply to our house, so i'm not charging whatever i have to prepare myself fot torture, coz there will be no electricilty from 9 to 3! T-T what can i do huh!?! commit suicide ah! -_- it's gonna be a boring day tomorrow. so now while it's not 11 yet, i'm converting some videos to put in my ipod, prepare for tomorrow...:( shit, just realised, no tv too!!! T-T
~AiLEeN*